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[felis_ultharus]

I'm stressed to the point of paralysis. I haven't been able to force myself to concentrate on schoolwork for days, and I've just realized that there is virtually no way I can complete my schoolwork in the assigned time. I'm also too stressed to sleep.

Why am I doing this to myself? Why don't I just give up on grad school altogether? It's agony just thinking about my workload, now, and it's a distraction from the things I actually want to do with my life.

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[em-fish.livejournal.com]

I don't know what you really want better than you do, but Grad School strikes me as one of those things you don't do unless it's what you "actually want to do with [your] life". Like a life in the theatre, it's one of those things that is such a hard row to hoe, all-consuming passion for it is essential - otherwise it just isn't worth it. Just something to think about.

Secret message (highlight to read):I am really very fond of you and I want you to come out of this in one piece.

[felis-ultharus.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It's just been nightmarishly stressful, between my uncle's death, Matt R in the hospital, and the demands of my writing.

To be honest, I'm not sure anymore why I thought I'd want to be a teacher. Truth is, I guess, that I keep looking for "safe," "respectable" profession instead of myu calling, writing.

[helenseidolon.livejournal.com]

I'm there with you, by the way. About the paralysis and the workload.

Ironically enough, next year should be much more chill.

[felis-ultharus.livejournal.com]

I think it will be for me, as well -- without all the TAing. Plus I have one really evil professor this term.